Tuesday, January 25, 2011

57 Things I Won't Say

I have 57 unpublished posts. Some are because I don't know how to finish saying what I must say so they remain incomplete. Some because I think they're just silly ramblings of me whining about things that no one would like to read about. Other's are just a bit too personal and seem to be more of a journal entry than a blog post.

But I'm grateful that I have this place where I can type and type my heart out. Even if the world (my followers) never see it. I sometimes write in a journal but a lot of the times I have far too much to say in a short space of time that my writing can not keep up with my thoughts. So I type it instead.

I don't know, maybe I'll publish some of these pieces if I read them again and deem it appropriate.
Maybe I think about it too much about it... Maybe I don't.

But I love how this blog serves as some sort of therapy.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

I Really Really Really Like This

I've been asked a lot what my favourite song is at the moment. Almost always I have the same answer - "I don't know there are too many to pick from".

Well, now, I think I've actually found one. I've liked it for a long time now (a few months) and I never thought of it as a favourite. But every time I listen to it, my heart lights up and sort of smiles. It's only today that I realised how much I liked this song. It's a very personal song for me. I even thought about whether or not it's something that I should share. I mean, it's not MY song. I don't own the rights to it. But I've made sort of a claim to it. I have it in my head that no one else should love this song like I do. Then I realised I was being silly. 

I wanted to post the whole lyrics on here because choosing a few lines as a sample was too difficult. But I ended up deciding I'll post the chorus (and the last two lines of the song). I love this song. 

Another risk of posting this is the possibility of people hating on it. I don't want that. So please don't diss or even call this song mediocre. To my face (or to my blog). You can have your negative opinion (of course) - I just don't want to hear it.

Is it just me or am I taking this favourite song thing way too seriously? Do you love your favourite song as much as I love mine? 

Oh and I should say what it is right? .. okay...
*deep breath*
.....and sorry if this end result is anti-climatic for you. It's my blog and my song (not really though).


I Am Understood? by Relient K.
You looked into my life and never stopped. And you're thinking all my thoughts are so simple, but so beautiful. And you recite my words right back to me before I even speak. You let me know 
I am understood.

Your voice has broken my defense.
Let me embrace salvation.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

At Least

"The bright side of it is," said Puddlegum, "that if we break our necks getting down the cliff, then we're safe from being drowned in the river."

Golden Globe Awards 2011: Dresses

My favourite gowns. Because that's the point of the award shows right?


Here are the ones I liked - I only have 3:

  So it's not very formal but Helena Bonham Carter's dress looks like a fun and funky dress to wear to something maybe more casual. Like a whimsical themed birthday party.

She's pregnant and she look spectacular. I wouldn't wear this dress myself but on Natalie Portman - it's fabulous. That red rose tops off the plain dress quite nicely I think.

MY FAVOURITE - A magical dress that belongs in a fairytale. Mmmmm.... :)

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Exam Results

I got my exam results in the mail today (yes, I didn't check on the NZQA website. I wanted a hard copy. Feels more official that way).

Anyway, my results weren't the best. They weren't fully satisfactory. I understand that they may be better than others. I'm a pretty smart girl who doesn't usually get bad marks. But personally, I wasn't very happy. I know I didn't work as hard as I could've. I didn't study enough. And it showed. I studied really hard for English and I got good marks in those papers. But other subjects... not as good. I've learnt on my lesson. Bring it on Level 2! I'm ready for you.

I know many people who are very modest and would deflect compliments and deny they have spectacular marks. I don't want to be that guy.
So I'm grateful that my results weren't as bad as they could be. They were good. Just not great.

P.S If you wanna know what I got.... TOO BAD! ... lol just kidding. I might tell you at school or something. They're not anything to parade but I understand if you're curious. I would be. Return the favour ok? :P (Yes, you Nicole)

Monday, January 17, 2011

Ditto

I was browsing random blogs. This girl had a post of just quotes and I read this passage. I was shocked at how much I could relate to it.

“I always get so overwhelmed trying to do everything perfectly. I can’t do a job and not put everything I have into it. I need to be the best employee, the best co-worker, the best whatever. I need everyone to like me and I just burn out bending over backward to make that happen. Having people be mad at me is my worst fear. I can’t stand it. There is this crazy fear I have of being rejected by anyone - even people I don’t really care about. It’s always better to leave them first, cut all ties, and disappear. They can’t hurt me that way - no one can.”


That part in bold is especially true.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Kotalo

You. Are. The Man.

I think you are one of the coolest girls I know. You stay true to your morals and I love your passion for things you believe in. Most of the times, I oppose you just to see your reaction. I bet you knew that already :P You're amusing and entertaining and you don't say stupid things. To me. I don't know about with everyone else. lol
I love your awkwardness when we talk about touchy subjects and we both say how weird we both feel.

I love our late night MSN sessions about an assignment due the next morning. We panic like crazy. And never learn our lesson. Let's see how we go this year eh? ;) You always finish your work before I do. Except for maths fair... but let's not go there and ruin such a lovely blog. HAHA

Don't snob me when we finish High School and make new friends okay?


Do you feel weird right about now? :D
That's right, I just blogged about you.

My Favourite Parts Of Yes Man

"A-and if you do not want to see me again, I will 
understa-a-a-a-a-and...."
Catchy 90's song & Jim Carey's singing made for an enjoyable performance. (And how cool is that the first song he learned while learning to play the guitar was the perfect song to help convince that dude not to jump).


 I think this photo speaks for itself.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Dum dee dum.... Twiddle Your Thumbs....

I like cellphones because they enable for me to look busy (or be busy) when I'm in a position where I'm just sitting or standing by myself and looking around or standing near a stranger (or a friend of a friend who you haven't been properly introduced to bu you've seen each other enough times to make introducing yourself feel weird) that I don't want to talk to. 

Or that time where a conversation that I'm in a close proximity of is getting intense and really personal and I feel that I ought to acknowledge the ones who are talking that I am trying not to pry and that I'm trying to focus on something else. 

Or that time where the group of people I'm with are engaged in a conversation that either doesn't involve me (because it's an inside joke that I will never be a part of or it was a you-have-be-there topic) or I don't want to discuss what's being discussed. 


Sometimes I need to communicate with somebody who's not with me so I'll give them a text message.


P.S Does anybody else use their cellphones for the reasons I listed?

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Love is not a because, it's a no matter what.

Mum and Bubbles


Monday, January 3, 2011

First Blog Of 2011

If you're kind, people will accuse you of selfish motives. Be kind anyway.
If you're successful, you'll win both false friends and true enemies. Succeed anyway.
What you spend years building, someone may destroy overnight. Build anyway.
The good you do today, most people will forget. Do good anyway.
Give the world your best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.
In the final analysis, it was between You and God. It was never between you and them anyway.



I read this and I thought it's a great thing to remember as I enter this year. Inspiring, encouraging and practical. I'm thinking, I should put this on my bedroom wall, or the toilet door. Hmmm... which surface do I look at more?